作词 : Vincent Jacovelli

作曲 : Vincent Jacovelli

Hey

Living like a mess tryna numb my pain

Battling the demons in my mind all day

Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane

Pop a pill

Have a drink

Don't break down

Hey

Living like a mess tryna numb my pain

Battling the demons in my mind all day

Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane

Pop a pill

Have a drink

Don't break down

Let's flashback to a moment in time

When I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mind

With psychedelics, cocaine and some smoke on the side

When I was broken overdosed and was hoping to die (yeah)

I guess the damage of feeling ****ing abandoned

Left me torn so I was slamming like every drug I was handed

I'd manage till I ran out

Then ravage through my dads house

Gather all my shit so I could sell it for a bag now

I couldn't tell that I was losing myself

And that the drugs only added to confusion I felt

And when the homies hit me up I was refusing the help

Cause I was busy tryna make a ****ing noose with a belt

But I was lonely and sick of feeling depressed

I was running out of options and ways to cope with the stress

I thought I'd feel bliss when the reaper came to collect

Cause I'm done with the pain I'd rather hang to my death and say

Hey

Living like a mess tryna numb my pain

Battling the demons in my mind all day

Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane

Pop a pill

Have a drink

Don't break down

Hey

Living like a mess tryna numb my pain

Battling the demons in my mind all day

Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane

Pop a pill

Have a drink

Don't break down

I never thought that my life would end when I'm 17

Now I'm writing notes to my family I thought I'd never leave

But all this pain I've been feeling it's time to set it free

Time to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dream

I waited till it was late and family was sleeping

Was thinking bout death I wasn't thinking bout 'em grieving

I thought that when they read the note they'd understand my reasons

So I crept downstairs time to finally conquer my demons

I grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pills

Ran 'em back up to my room feeling hollow with chills

Wasn't nervous I was ready I was confident still

Poured a dozen in my palm and started popping to kill (yeah)

I'm finally doing it

Time to call in the eulogist

I got what I deserved I took my life and I ruined it

30 minutes later my feelings started to fade

Went from falling out of love to falling into my grave

I'm getting woozy and passing out in my bed

I was fading in and out a few moments away from death

But something in my stomach was traveling up my chest

I just fell to the floor and started puking up red

And now the medicine is covering my hands

They were drenched in it this is not the way that it was planned

I crawled to my bed I was barely able to stand

This is not what I intended I got myself in a jam

I ****ed up I was broken and weak

I never wanted to die I wanted a moment of peace

Felt my heart skip a beat when I woke from my sleep

The next day and saw the suicide note at my feed and thought

Hey

Living like a mess tryna numb my pain

Battling the demons in my mind all day

Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane

Pop a pill

Have a drink

Don't break down

Hey

Living like a mess tryna numb my pain

Battling the demons in my mind all day

Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane

Pop a pill

Have a drink

Don't break dow