[00:00.000] 作词 : Vincent Jacovelli
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Vincent Jacovelli
[00:10.971]Hey
[00:11.769]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain
[00:14.167]Battling the demons in my mind all day
[00:16.820]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane
[00:19.681]Pop a pill
[00:20.206]Have a drink
[00:20.752]Don't break down
[00:21.804]Hey
[00:22.605]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain
[00:25.003]Battling the demons in my mind all day
[00:27.907]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane
[00:30.569]Pop a pill
[00:31.098]Have a drink
[00:31.633]Don't break down
[00:32.700]Let's flashback to a moment in time
[00:34.816]When I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mind
[00:37.475]With psychedelics, cocaine and some smoke on the side
[00:40.401]When I was broken overdosed and was hoping to die (yeah)
[00:43.584]I guess the damage of feeling ****ing abandoned
[00:46.238]Left me torn so I was slamming like every drug I was handed
[00:48.902]I'd manage till I ran out
[00:50.234]Then ravage through my dads house
[00:51.817]Gather all my shit so I could sell it for a bag now
[00:54.746]I couldn't tell that I was losing myself
[00:56.875]And that the drugs only added to confusion I felt
[00:59.523]And when the homies hit me up I was refusing the help
[01:02.174]Cause I was busy tryna make a ****ing noose with a belt
[01:05.369]But I was lonely and sick of feeling depressed
[01:08.022]I was running out of options and ways to cope with the stress
[01:10.672]I thought I'd feel bliss when the reaper came to collect
[01:13.339]Cause I'm done with the pain I'd rather hang to my death and say
[01:16.523]Hey
[01:17.056]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain
[01:19.708]Battling the demons in my mind all day
[01:22.367]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane
[01:25.019]Pop a pill
[01:25.555]Have a drink
[01:26.097]Don't break down
[01:27.147]Hey
[01:28.214]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain
[01:30.600]Battling the demons in my mind all day
[01:33.251]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane
[01:35.646]Pop a pill
[01:36.444]Have a drink
[01:36.979]Don't break down
[01:38.567]I never thought that my life would end when I'm 17
[01:40.964]Now I'm writing notes to my family I thought I'd never leave
[01:43.619]But all this pain I've been feeling it's time to set it free
[01:46.275]Time to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dream
[01:49.193]I waited till it was late and family was sleeping
[01:51.589]Was thinking bout death I wasn't thinking bout 'em grieving
[01:54.507]I thought that when they read the note they'd understand my reasons
[01:56.891]So I crept downstairs time to finally conquer my demons
[01:59.826]I grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pills
[02:02.220]Ran 'em back up to my room feeling hollow with chills
[02:04.875]Wasn't nervous I was ready I was confident still
[02:07.734]Poured a dozen in my palm and started popping to kill (yeah)
[02:11.187]I'm finally doing it
[02:12.241]Time to call in the eulogist
[02:13.574]I got what I deserved I took my life and I ruined it
[02:16.449]30 minutes later my feelings started to fade
[02:18.832]Went from falling out of love to falling into my grave
[02:22.015]I'm getting woozy and passing out in my bed
[02:24.145]I was fading in and out a few moments away from death
[02:26.806]But something in my stomach was traveling up my chest
[02:29.729]I just fell to the floor and started puking up red
[02:32.914]And now the medicine is covering my hands
[02:35.034]They were drenched in it this is not the way that it was planned
[02:37.965]I crawled to my bed I was barely able to stand
[02:40.617]This is not what I intended I got myself in a jam
[02:43.537]I ****ed up I was broken and weak
[02:46.187]I never wanted to die I wanted a moment of peace
[02:48.590]Felt my heart skip a beat when I woke from my sleep
[02:51.233]The next day and saw the suicide note at my feed and thought
[02:54.695]Hey
[02:55.483]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain
[02:57.880]Battling the demons in my mind all day
[03:00.529]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane
[03:02.929]Pop a pill
[03:03.730]Have a drink
[03:04.259]Don't break down
[03:05.326]Hey
[03:06.113]Living like a mess tryna numb my pain
[03:08.768]Battling the demons in my mind all day
[03:11.422]Either I'm ****ed up or I'm insane
[03:13.825]Pop a pill
[03:14.612]Have a drink
[03:15.154]Don't break down