作词 : Daniel Nwosu Jr./Alex Nour

作曲 : Daniel Nwosu Jr./Alex Nour

Everything I did I always gave it my best

I don't know if anyone relates

But the feeling that I get is like a truck sitting on my chest

Wondering how much do I got left

My last call, my last step

I'm not gonna wait just to see what's next

I go hard 'cause today could be my last breath

We do life and we can relive it

We only get one chance, if you blink, then you might just miss it

Many people come and go, they all just visit

Don't ever expect nothin' different

Just listen as I paint this image that you all revisit

I'm a glass half empty but I still might sip it

I was traumatized

What would you have said when you was looking in my Mama's eyes

Nothin'

Yeah I might have said I was okay but I probably lied

So this pain is how I harmonize

Making impact that's what I personify

Yes I'm making music that you cannot just define by the numbers on my Spotify

All of this pain I just wanna be happy

Momma almost died the same day that she had me

Driving to the hospital, she swerved and crashed badly

Doctor said I was a miracle while looking at my Daddy

I was zero when I first dodged death

I was six when the devil told me watch my step

Couldn't sleep I was scared to go inside my bed

Fighting demons I was hearing things inside my head

So back to the Doctor he didn't have a diagnosis

So my whole damn life I felt lost while fighting psychosis

Talking to myself hoping nobody would notice

Mom said pray every time I heard the voices

Life or death, every day I swear I made choices

Life in my hand trying not to lose focus

Playing basketball religiously to drown out the noises man

Let me explain that it's like laying on train tracks

Grabbing guns contemplating blowing your brain back

Eyes closed shut watching everything fade black

People stepping over you you feel like a placemat

**** and let me make it clear

God is the only one that I've ever feared

But you start to get paranoid and look over your shoulder

When these people have been hurting you for so many years

So I had to escape

If you listening I know that you relate

Is that feeling that you get like your life and existence was all just one big mistake

I felt trapped and I couldn't find space

I went and got lost in the things I create

Ever since I was a kid, people hated and they judged everything that I did

So I went into my mind and created the abyss

Man I swear I did

How the hell y'all think I make all these hits

It's 'cause I've been broken, beat and dragged

Laughed at scorn, burned and kicked

So I get to reach in this endless pit

Of hurt and pain from all that shit

And that's the only reason that your people come here

Or for God's sake even though that Dax exist

This is how it feels to drown

This is how it looks when you're lost and you can't be found

The abyss was a place I'd visit

But I went so much that I'm gone and I'm stuck here now

This is not music, this is not dope

This is me begging y'all to throw me a rope

So I can try to climb up the place where I came in my life

When I spiral then first lost hope

Let me explain

I've been Dax so long I got PTSD when somebody says my real name

But I guess that's the price you pay

I didn't want it to be like this

But I guess it is what it is

Inside the ab