An ordinary cat from outer projects

Since I was younger though

Mom raised her children

Pops dipped a long time ago

In my mind I see flashbacks

I had no fancy clothes

Skinny ugly knotty head *****

Crying with a snotty nose

Even though my father neglect

He pay the child support

Hadn't seen him all these years

I hug his ass in court

Always saying I'm coming to get you

And I be waiting too

Holiday and birthday presents

Was never coming through

Remember at the age 13

I started smoking ****

Hanging out with cats that was older

Start to run the street

Dropped out of high school

Selling drugs impressing chicks

Spent most my cheddar on gear

My man was buying whips

New York Jamaican Miami ******

Flooded Virginia quick

Cause signing work only if buying

Prices was high as ****

Remember when I first got hit

I seen the iron spit

50 cash bent in one corner bleeding

Where pellet hit

My man shawn

He held on strong

Slug burn through his lower back side

Crack his spine exit his arm

Lost him twice on the hospital table

And when he died I cried my eyes out

I couldn't take it damn damn

But the same things continued to happen

****** got bust

I'm a kid with a grown man's mind turning corrupt

Playing innocent in front of my elders

I was running with them cats that be robbing too

I couldn't tell them

If my name was up in any type trouble

My moms would tell me

Just like you brothers into some ****

Go get a job or something

Just a little bum on the street

Not working hard for nothing

Scratch I made when I was pumping

I'm here to offer something

Making sure the crib stay tight

For real I wasn't no dummy

Tell me where you getting this money

I wash a car be lying

Saying anything sides drugs selling

My sister seen me on the block

Transact with fiends

Be saying I'm tell it

Growing up was hell no doubt

I wonder where was heaven

Now I'm a grown man

Still it's like life dealt me the wrong hand

Cat's that was my man be fronting

Or either found dead

Sound said incarcerated just turned a new Dad

Remembering them long ten months

From slinging crack bags

Mom put me out with the quickness

Carry your black ass

I'm still coming back to the crib

Oh so you back yeah

May I just came to holler to see how you doing

Nothings changed after all these years

Still hustle for some gear smoke ****

Still drink beers

I tell you from my heart

Yo times I'm like yeah

I wonder if heaven was a place in this planet

Youd find me right th