Disappear (ghost)

My mind spills to thrills and fills the void, kills the noise

You know the game build, destroy, Tetris

Before you turn the phone off but then the phone dies

There's no break for a black guy

Blacklisted before they even wrote sh*t

Mad gifted before we even spoke the word

In the beginning, it was just a word

And the word was with God and the word was Allah

Voilà but it ain't magic n*ggas die but it ain't tragic

Its more natural new birth

What if heaven is the new Earth?

What if God is a bluebird, that can't fly because it knows itself as the sky?

I used to see rain as the proof I can cry with no fear

But now I gotta hide my own tears so I don't seem weak

I don't even want to see me cause I don't know that n*gga

I don't owe that n*gga

To tell the truth, something to show that n*gga

That's why I love you because I know who you are

That's why I look at you like I seen you before

I recognize you from a hole in the wall

That I punched in the wall because I'm so pissed off

I meditate and try to calm myself

I know anger only harm myself

False alarm myself

So many books I read to warn myself

I want more myself

Look at in the mirror and I scorn myself

Who am I?

And am I really even here?

I think it's time for me to disappear

Cause I've been living way too long in the right or the wrong

I'm as small as a fly with the sh*t that I'm on

So get going get lost

I don't want to be found

You won't see me if you looking around

Cause I've been living way too long in the right or the wrong

I'm as small as a fly with the sh*t that I'm on

So get going get lost

I don't want to be found

You won't see me if you looking around

Feel my rain

Feel my pain, feel my force walk into the flame

It will change you of course

Don't be scared, I will be there where you are

You don't know

It's ok where you go

Yesterday I saw the ending of the end

And I'm in it again

Everything is on spin, I'm just caught in the wind

Protectless, breathless, stress less

The high got the Faye kinda restless

Second guessing intent directions

I get a kick out of the irony of my blessings

Humerous in life, enormous as my sacrifice so it seems

Then again sino with a thick

But a dollar and a dream and a model for the team

Or a slogan for the soul

Just all my n*gga know gone on my body

The body in the crust livin' the life

How you living your just another soldier right?

What I'm fighting for don't even know what I'm writing for

Man this ain't even real life no more

I'm on the edge and I got nothing but a song

I'm lucky if the birds sing along

Cause I've been living way too long in the right or the wrong

I'm as small as a fly with the sh*t I'm on

So keep going get lost

I don't want to be found

You won't see me if you looking around

Cause I've been living way too long in the right or the wrong

I'm as small as a fly with the sh*t I'm on

So keep going get lost

I don't want to be found

You won't see me if you looking around

Feel my pain

Feel my pain, feel my force walk into the flame

It will change you of course

Don't be scared, I will be there where you are

You don't know (It's okay)

It's ok where you g