Now look here, in the house opposite

Black gate posts with a concrete frog squatting on top of it

Through the hallway

Ancient wallpaper

Nicotine gold

Up the stairs, rickety

Loaded with history

Here in the top flat

Flowers on the windowsill

Little breeze fluttering the petals as they stare out

At the city streets

Gemma is awake

What woke her?

Open eyes

Street lights float slowly through broken blinds

She watches

As the light plays across the tattered carpet

And she holds herself tight in the room's half darkness

It's cold

She wedges her hands underneath her armpits

It's 4:18

And Gemma's thinking

Before I was a adult

I was a little wreck

Peddling whatever I could get my grubby mitts on

Ketamine for beakfast

Bad girls were drinking with

I gave 'em puppy dog eyes for the acid on their fingertips

Heads in the basement

Lips without faces

Getting faced in, half-baked in a bakery

Eating pastries

Desperate for a body who could save me

But I never really wondered what they gave me

Always wanted something else

Sweating in the door queue

Spittin' like a villain in the pantomime old shoes

Bad teeth

Drinking in the rain with my ghost

Sitting in the back of the class, comatose

Uh, feelings on my back in the dark

Hold me close

But you never held

I did some things I swore I'd never tell

'Til that night you tried to kill me

Run me down with your car in the snow

I didn't realize I thought you would go

Every day I live lives in the day I wake up in

My dreams are all screaming "Oh ****!"

But I'm fine now

Something remains its still pulling me

Yeah my future is bright but my past tryin' to ruin me

Tried to change it but I know

If you're good to me I will let you go

Tried to fight it but I'm sure

If you're bad to me I will like you more

I saw some things when I was young

That made me who I would become

I fill them with me everyday

'Cause if you try and run away

They run beside you place for place

Trip you up and drag your face

Freedom out of every waste

They chancing every bit of taste

Heart is sprayed up with the names of all my friends who lost their way

Doesn't change it all remains

It takes my strength and gives me shame

All I want is someone great

To make me everything I ain't

But the only ones for me

Are the ones that shouldn't be

Even though I'm doing good

I'm working hard, my work is strong

Might be fun just for a while to go back to where my hurt is from

Rinse myself through emptiness

and push my body close to anybody who can recognize the presence of my ghost

Tried to change it but I know

If you're good to me I will let you go

Tried to fight it but I'm sure

If you're bad to me I will like you more

Tried to change it but I know

If you're good to me I will let you go

Tried to fight it but I'm sure

If you're bad to me I will like you