Drowning - Jay Brannan

It's four A M again

Father forgive me this sin

Uncomfortable in this life yeah

I can't put down this knife yeah

I'm carving words in my arms baby

Hey scars are part of my charm maybe

I need the touch of a hand

This isn't what I had planned

I need relief from this life

I wanna slip away into the night

Don't wanna see the sun again

But can't get swallowed up by this tragic whirlwind

I wish the ocean was warm

I feel like drowning

I'm losing my faith in me

I can't remember the last time I felt free

From voices inside my head

When I taste liberation

They just feed me fear instead

You say I'm out of control

At least I still have a soul

No I don't need your advice

Some compassion would be nice

I need relief from this life

I wanna slip away into the night

Don't wanna see the sun again

But can't get swallowed up by this tragic whirlwind

I wish the ocean was warm

I feel like drowning

I can't take any more of your pills

They hold my head up

But still it feels so wrong

I can't believe the price that I've paid

For this chemically-induced perceivably ideal

Take - it - with - a - glass - of - water day

I need relief from this life

I wanna slip away into the night

Don't wanna see the sun again

But can't get swallowed up by this tragic whirlwind

I wish the ocean was warm

I feel like drowning